Only one or the last resort

Friends?

I got a bunch of them.

I think so.

True friends not a lot but quite a few.

I guess so.

Not true?

Maybe I am too confident on that.

Always I thought I have quite a number of friend will back me up no matter what.

But I guess today I have to doubt the things that I always believe.

I am only true friends when there is no other choice .

When it comes to a group then I guess I an the last resort.

The insignificant one!

Do not agree with this?

Prove me wrong then.

Lets pray

Let pray that your result is not true,

please dont think much it will be okay.

think positive and bear in mind that i will always be there for u.

ps: you may never know this post exist

Cross the line

I am ought to be treated this way,

I had cross the line,

I betrayed our friendship,

I make things harder,

and now is the time to pay back.

Nothing will be the same again,

is time to go back to the time before I know you,

I deserve all this shit because I just cannot control myself.

My weaknesses is I never learn from past experience.

Now

Everything seems to be wrong in the group.
For others who are not in the group will think that our group is a happy group with no conflicts,
but no.
I guess this is a group with most conflict,
things reshuffle every time,
the same thing happen again and again,
the only different is the victim.
Can all of you just sit down and talk about it.
Cos if this continue, I guess the next one will be me again.
And seriously, I do not want to be stuck in the middle and force to make a stand.
FYI the feeling really sucks.
I HATE it a lot.

DId My Best

Seriously what do you want me to do?

What I can say I did my best.

I try not get near you when he is around,

I try not to talk to you when he is around,

I know if both of us is beside you at the same time,

you will stress out,

that's why i back off whenever he is around.

I never try to compete,

I never try to prove that I am better than him,

I just do things because they will cheer you up and make you happy.

I do not blog this to tell you what did I do for you,

I just don't know what to do that can avoid piss you off,

Why take this so serious?

Because I care.

Not to like you anymore?

I am sorry I can't.

Expectation

What do I expect now?

Seriously nothing at all.

I hate myself now.

I just do not know,

it seems like nothing is ever important anymore,

my future, my family, my friends.

What happen to me seriously?

Appreciate

In this world some people get what they want but they dont appreciate it,
but there is a group of people that want something so badly but cannot get what they want.
It is just the same when it comes to love.
Some people get a chance to be together with the one they love,
because they love each other.
After having it, they just do not know how to appreciate it,
and take it for granted.
How bout the one that cannot get together to the one they love?
They will sacrifice, change, and do anything to get together with that persom.
I guess that is the difference between wanting it and having it.
Cause less likely human will appreciate what they already got.

Jar of Hearts

Love the metaphors used in this song.
Nice song =)

Now

I do not know.
I do not want to.
I do not let this happen.
I do not want it to happen.
I wish I can express my feelings now.
I am not emo.
Neither happy.
Neither sad.
I am just do not feel like talking.
Somehow I just lost my emotions.
I am not lost anymore.
I just lost my passion in everything.

J

You are a very nice girl,
Is girl that is good at socializing,
A girl that I do not have a problem telling all my problem to,
You are the one still believe and accept me as a friend when everyone decide to ignore me.
Yes I have to agree that at one point you disappoint me,
at that point you just prove what I believe about you are all wrong.
Is just like you are a total different person that I know.
After awhile I realized I being biased towards you,
I am sorry I doubt you for who you are.
It will not happen again.
After all you are still who you are.
The things change in between is just my thought not you.