Now

Everything seems to be wrong in the group.
For others who are not in the group will think that our group is a happy group with no conflicts,
but no.
I guess this is a group with most conflict,
things reshuffle every time,
the same thing happen again and again,
the only different is the victim.
Can all of you just sit down and talk about it.
Cos if this continue, I guess the next one will be me again.
And seriously, I do not want to be stuck in the middle and force to make a stand.
FYI the feeling really sucks.
I HATE it a lot.

DId My Best

Seriously what do you want me to do?

What I can say I did my best.

I try not get near you when he is around,

I try not to talk to you when he is around,

I know if both of us is beside you at the same time,

you will stress out,

that's why i back off whenever he is around.

I never try to compete,

I never try to prove that I am better than him,

I just do things because they will cheer you up and make you happy.

I do not blog this to tell you what did I do for you,

I just don't know what to do that can avoid piss you off,

Why take this so serious?

Because I care.

Not to like you anymore?

I am sorry I can't.

Expectation

What do I expect now?

Seriously nothing at all.

I hate myself now.

I just do not know,

it seems like nothing is ever important anymore,

my future, my family, my friends.

What happen to me seriously?

Appreciate

In this world some people get what they want but they dont appreciate it,
but there is a group of people that want something so badly but cannot get what they want.
It is just the same when it comes to love.
Some people get a chance to be together with the one they love,
because they love each other.
After having it, they just do not know how to appreciate it,
and take it for granted.
How bout the one that cannot get together to the one they love?
They will sacrifice, change, and do anything to get together with that persom.
I guess that is the difference between wanting it and having it.
Cause less likely human will appreciate what they already got.

Jar of Hearts

Love the metaphors used in this song.
Nice song =)

Now

I do not know.
I do not want to.
I do not let this happen.
I do not want it to happen.
I wish I can express my feelings now.
I am not emo.
Neither happy.
Neither sad.
I am just do not feel like talking.
Somehow I just lost my emotions.
I am not lost anymore.
I just lost my passion in everything.

J

You are a very nice girl,
Is girl that is good at socializing,
A girl that I do not have a problem telling all my problem to,
You are the one still believe and accept me as a friend when everyone decide to ignore me.
Yes I have to agree that at one point you disappoint me,
at that point you just prove what I believe about you are all wrong.
Is just like you are a total different person that I know.
After awhile I realized I being biased towards you,
I am sorry I doubt you for who you are.
It will not happen again.
After all you are still who you are.
The things change in between is just my thought not you.

A

A girl that I think is stupid, bimbo, try to produce conflict in the group.
I hated her for quite long or you can say the whole year of 2010.
But now the feeling had passed.
What I can say she had earned my respect.
She is a bitch when do not know her inside out.
But after she recognize you as a friend than be prepared
She will treat you totally different.
yes she may be still bitchy.
She may have certain pattern that make people dislike her.
But what can I say is who does not?
At least I do not take it as a problem because I am not perfect as well.

SO

If anyone ever asked me who is the hardest person for me to blog now.

It will be you for sure.

The reason is the post will be bias.

You are a girl that I started to noticed since form 4.

The first impression you gave to me is this girl looks like a maid

but somehow I just cannot stop looking at you.

You are a emo girl but when I see you,

you just make my day.

You complain a lot but the way you complain things is just funny.

You are a very straight forward person but people just like you to be that way.

You get freak out easily but at the same time you feel bad easily.

You take other's problems too personally but treat yourself very badly.

The time you spend on other's issues is more than your own issues.

You are capable of doing all the emotions in the world -.-.

and make everyone laugh.

You are great now.

If you think of making a change,

what I can say is just stay the same.

N

A girl that I had a crush before,
A girl I thought that is perfect when i like her.
But after the feeling past she is not.
What i can say now she is not far from that.
She is a girl that think too much and like to make things complicated.
Or should I say that all the girl likes to make things complicated.
She is loud, lame and crazy when she is high.
How often she get high?
Basically two third of her life.
And yes she get high about everything surrounded by her.
She is a girl I never regret knowing.
A girl that that I tell her all my problem and most of my secrets.

You are just like my younger sister now.